Perfect women (or men), do not manifest on this planet of existence. Celebrities who sells perfection are more to be pitied than censured, envied, or emulated.

Why? Because, despite their fame and bank accounts, they rarely know a moment's peace; the whole world is watching, waiting for a misstep.

Soon to be a mommy!

Our sweet Tabbey-lita is giving birth any time this week!!!

Right after being the Phil's best persian in '09, and winning the cat show in Thailand late last year, she got pregnant (by a hot stud! To be introduced later.), and she is now giving birth to 4 babies!!!

We are so super excited about this... but quite anxious at the same time. This is going to be Tabbey's first time to give birth. And also our first time to be holding tiny kittens! Tabbey was around 5 months when we first had her... but this time, we will be nursing kittens smaller than my palm! Geez.

This was her!

<--- This was her when I first held her in my arms!!

And now she's having her own babies?!?!

And she's not even nearly 2 years old? Wow, I wonder how real mother's feel when they are about to have granddaughters?

Haha.

Tabbey has been isolated, her vet said it would be best for her. She's been alone. We didn't let her come out of her room for almost 2 months! We were so careful, we even had to refrain from holding her.. That's why even tho I see her every day, I still miss her, I miss cuddling with her so much!! Every time she sees us she would meow as if begging us to play and take her out of that room, where there are no toys (she's not allowed to play e). Kawawa, sometimes I don't check on her na nga lang coz I might not be able to control myself. But this afternoon I took her out of her room, I super wanted to take pictures of her before she gives birth!! It's ok coz it's safe na, she's going to give birth any time now anyway. =p

You know, my little girl never looked happy since she got preggy, never perky. I noticed that. Of course, if you're left alone in a box for 2 months who would be, right. But... I'm sure it's also because of her pregnancy? She is probably experiencing that strange sensations in her body, just like of a pregnant woman eh? (Btw, that 'box' is as big as a storage room, spacious. But still!! All alone?!). Ok, sure enough, there is joy in pregnancy for Humans. lol. But with Tabbey, I think because it's her first pregnancy, she has not properly prepared herself for what it will be like, and she is probably fearful? Because she does not know how to cope up with these new sensations, she often works herself up into quite an emotional state, and come to dread and fear each contraction? The fear-tension-pain cycle, isn't it? Or, could she be feeling a little unpoised, and she thinks the other lass is sexier because her belly is getting bigger and bigger? Haha. Maybe I'm just analyzing too much... Did I even describe it correctly, how a preggy feels, mothers?

Don't think I'm silly. Haha. I'm just really worried for her, the vet said she might have a c-section pa. =|

Here are some pix from this afternoon:

In addition to this news,

Sshh... Tabbey hasn't taken a bath for over 2 months now, sshhh!!!

Nah.

While that's true ^ , the additional report is that we are finally

launching our cattery SOON.

Just finalizing a couple of things as of the moment.

So if you are interested, or if there's anyone you know that's planning or in search of beautiful persian cats, leave me a message.

Coz we will start to QUALIFY future 'parents' and homes for our very first litter.

Yes, we will have them adopted....... What a sad thought for me?! =(

Oh well.

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"Cats look beyond appearances--beyond species entirely, it seems--to peer into the heart." - Barbara L. Diamond

Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks

Mathew 12:33-37, Jesus speaking:
"A good tree gives good fruit. A bad tree gives bad fruit. A tree is known by its fruit. You family of snakes! How can you say good things when you are sinful? The mouth speaks what the heart is full of. A good man will speak of good things because of the good in him. A bad man will speak bad things because of the sin in him. I say to you, on the day men stand before God, they will have to give an answer for every word they have spoken. For it is by your words that you will not be guilty and it is by your words that you will be guilty."

Wow.

You've heard me say, if you don't have anything good to say about other people, don't say it. That's what my elders taught me. But that verse up there ^ is a strong statement from Jesus! Our speech is just one area out of the whole of our behavior. We will be judged for every word, even the idle ones that we may just toss off in a time of weakness or when joking around with friends. That is a pretty strict judgment.

Jesus speaks here in black-and-white terms. The tree (meaning the person) is either good—producing good fruit—or he is bad and produces bad fruit. Which are we?

Do you think about what really comes out of your mouth? Do you think about the impact, whether good or bad, your words have on not only those around you, but yourself? Do you think about the impact it has on the personal view someone else has of God, whether they know Him or not?

"For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks."

So, what will it be with us? What is the abundance of our heart?

The picture there is that the heart is a kind of vessel--a bowl--and things that are poured into the heart. At a certain point, the vessel will overflow, and an abundance will come out of it. What comes out of our heart--this bowl or vessel--will expose the characteristics of the heart.

And whatever information we inhale, we exhale.

When we pour information into our minds, we process it. For a while, it stays in the bowl, as it were, and becomes mixed with what has been put there before. Our minds work on it for a while, and over time, it begins to gel into certain ideas. Once our minds are full, ideas break out in words, plans, and behaviors. Evil thoughts within, evil speech. Or, we can put it the other way around--Godly, kind, loving, Christ-like thoughts within, Christ-like speech.

What breaks out of our hearts? We have to answer that ourselves. Do we have profane minds that spew out profane speech? Or is it "on [our] tongue is the law of kindness" (Proverbs 31:26) because behind our tongues are pure and kind hearts?

One of the most powerful tool to defeat satan and bring others to a relationship with Christ are our spoken words. For what we believe, we speak. (2Corinthians 4:13)

Yet many times we use our words to hurt, gossip, criticize, lie, curse, or be rude or unkind. Again, maybe it's because these are the things we've been feeding our hearts......what we say reveals what's in our minds, our hearts. But as we inhale scripture, we exhale His words. They are like CPR for the soul, as Beth Moore so eloquently puts it. As christians, we must guard our words like they are gold. For what comes out of our mouths is what lies in our hearts. I often need to be reminded of this, because so many times I fail to see, in my daily life, the things that I say that unintentionally hurt both my witness, and also my witness of Christ.

Psalm 139:4

"Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord."

I don't know about you, but that verse blows my mind.

Our thoughts are just precursors to our speech and action.

So, where do we stand in relation to this line that Jesus Christ our Savior, our God and Judge, has drawn? Are we a good tree or a bad one?

P.S.
We can't solve our 'heart problem' just by cleaning up our speech.
We must allow the Holy Spirit to fill us with new attitudes and motives;
then our speech will be cleansed at its source. ☺

You wanna know something? Every normal man or woman longs more keenly for love, for warm friendship, admiration, for human responsiveness from his fellows than for any thing else in life. But what men and women do not see is the fact that the miracle of receiving from others must begin on the inside of himself. It must begin inside of his own mind, his own heart. He is the one, when he begins passing out love, giving love, he gets love in return. But he'll never get true warmth, kindness, or love..... until he begins giving it out. And it's just like that.

I have a beautiful blank book and each night before I go to bed, I write down five things that I can be grateful about that day. It's what I call a daily gratitude journal. Some days my list will be filled with amazing things, most days just simple joys. "The day passed by without any bad news. I saw some great paintings and panorama this afternoon, and I remembered how much I love arts. I quarreled with someone about something but it didn't last for 4 hours. I was feeling grumpy but I was reminded that the Lord on His throne, is watching over me from heaven, He is thinking about me."

Other days--rough ones---I might think that I don't have five things to be grateful for, so I'll write down my basics: my health, my family-their health, my pets, my home, my friends, and the comfortable bed that I'm about to get into, as well as the fact that the day's over. That's okay. Real life isn't always going to be perfect or go our way, but the reccuring acknowledgement of what is working in our lives can help us not only survive but surmount our difficulties. ü

Did you know?

That the physical workout of the muscles around your mouth increases the positive enzymes in your brain chemistry! (:

I just learned that this morning. So smile, especially if you don't feel like it (:

I remember when I first started to blog for public viewing. Years ago during the Starstruck competition. We were all given a space online (14 of us), through Igma.tv --we were asked to reach out to the 'fans'. And I thought sure, that would be really cool.. I love writing, no problem! But I wanted to use that space as a channel of communication with you, as a way to impart a bit of me.. and not to campaign for more votes like what we were asked to do. After some time though, just right after the competition, that site was shut down without any notice. I had to look for another place. So we all moved in this spot in cyberspace. And the journey continues.

When I first started to blog, I just wanted to communicate with you, those people who have been consistently showed their support. I thought I owe it to you... that this is the least thing I can do to show my appreciation for all of you. After all, who am I that you are spending time to check out on me. But I love writing, so this became a place where I come and share my heart a little too.

Now I am a public figure and a self-confessed Christian. Being so conscious about that, I felt the pressure to always post positively. I felt that eyes were on me and that if I showed discouragement, or if I failed {whether spiritually, emotionally, or in any aspect}, and showed it here, I was failing you. I have since come to acknowledge that being 'perfect' is what is expected of anyone from 'showbiz world'. Have you ever noticed? People from showbiz, most especially the superstars, they always have the projection of being 'wow!positive-in-everything' .. In speech, in life, in lifestyle, in everything! Because that is what's expected from them. And they get compliments and praises for that, and that adds to the pressure! Somehow, I felt the force, being somehow part of showbiz, 'a role model' , I always have to be 'upbeat'. So I thought I only wanted to blog about anything uplifting. But somewhere along the way that has changed somewhat.

I have spent quite a bit of time over the past few months thinking about what direction I want my writings to go. I love writing about anything beautiful, anything inspiring. I want to be a woman of 'good vibes', and victory. But you know what, I also want to focus on not only my joys, but my struggles, and above all -my walk in Christ. I don't want to be put in a position of a showbiz personality where people put you in a high regard, in a pedestal. Where people, because of their too much adoration project you as 'perfect'. Not that I am viewed like that, but I'm just stressing a point here. It's insane! You know how sometimes, because of too much adoration --some people tend to think of their 'idol' as 'perfect'? Someone without fault, or ok, close to perfect. But c'mon, is there existence of such a thing??

It has been a long road coming to terms with the fact that I don't always have to be “on”. I want to be upbeat and positive but I am not always that way. Humans are prone to blow it. I am a human being and guess what, that makes it feel good to say that I am not perfect!

I have come to realize that there are no perfect people. God knows that I am far from perfect myself. I make mistakes every single day of my life. I am still a gnarled, empty, tree trunk much of the time. But there are no perfect lives nor perfect personalities. There are only shadows of grace in a fallen world, and if we search hard enough… we might just able to sit in that shade for a while and rest.

I've been incredibly blessed with great readers and supporters. To call them 'fans' is just never appropriate. Ugh. I dislike that word. I call them friends.
Please let me remind you that I should not be a blank canvas on which you can project all the best qualities of your ideal woman on. Please let me be real in my pain. Real in my failures. Real in my shortcomings. And accept me still.

I have countless of flaws. I commit slip-ups. I make bad choices sometimes. I still have moments of complete and utter frustration at what life can hand me.

But then I look deep into those shadows and see a perfect Gods grace...
And all is well in my little imperfect world.

“When nobody around you seems to measure up, it’s time to check your yardstick.” ~Bill Lemley

That quote has stuck with me since the first time I read it. I often have to check my yardstick because someone is failing me or not living up to my expectations/standards. And then I think about how many times I have tried to live up to someone else’s standards and failed miserably.

Patience it is, that's needed.

1Peter 2:23

When people spoke against Him, He never spoke back.

When He suffered from what people did to Him.

He did not try to pay them back. He left it in the hands

of the One Who is always right in judging.

(:

The devil always make sin looks beautiful.

My heart cries out --- THY WILL BE DONE! ♪♫ (:(:(:

☺☺☺

A fool shows his annoyance at once,
but a prudent man overlooks an insult.

-Proverbs 12:16

January

The month of new beginnings and cherished memories, beckons.


And now let us welcome the New Year
Full of things that have never been. ☼ rmr